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  Gunn made for the stairs. Stanton had an uneasy feeling in his gut but he couldn’t let him go up there by himself. He took out an extra pair of plastic cuffs and wrapped them around the man’s ankles before heading for the stairs.

  The stairs were carpeted and didn’t creak. Gunn went up one side and Stanton the other. At the top of the stairs they saw several rooms. One of the doors was halfway open and he could see a linoleum floor. He pushed the door open slightly and looked inside.

  In the bathtub was the nude body of Jesus Juan Estrada. A low-level pot and heroin dealer; one that had been working as a confidential informant for the San Diego PD until he disappeared a week ago. Deep purple bruising on his face and body revealed hours of beatings. His genitals had been cut off and there were dozens of cigarette burns covering him.

  “Poor bastard,” Gunn said, poking his head in.

  A rustling noise from one of the other rooms. Sheets being moved around. The detectives looked at each other. Gunn hopped into the shower and pulled the curtain closed. Stanton quickly went down a few steps on the staircase and laid flat on his stomach.

  A man in boxer shorts and a cloth undershirt came out of one of the rooms. He walked into the bathroom and lifted the toilet seat and began to piss. Gunn slowly moved the shower curtain. He looked to Stanton and winked.

  Gunn leapt out of the shower and wrapped his arm around the man’s neck. He took him down to the ground with such force that it rattled the house. The man was immobilized. Stanton ran up the stairs when he heard a female voice coming out of one of the rooms saying, “Jesus, que es lo que esta pasando?”

  She stepped out of the room and saw Jesus down on the floor of the bathroom with Gunn on top of him and she screamed. Stanton went to quiet her when he heard shuffling coming from another room. He fell to the floor and a second later the pop of a handgun echoed through the house as rounds came through the door on the far side of the hall. One hit the woman in the side and she dropped. Stanton lifted his weapon and began firing through the door. He got off five rounds before the return fire stopped.

  Stanton ran to the woman. Blood was pouring out of her and soaking the carpet. He took off his shirt and wrapped it around her wound, applying pressure as he dialed dispatch with his other hand.

  “This is Detective Jonathan Stanton, SDPD, 17469. I need an ambulance at 1327 Rondido Drive. We have a suspect down with a gunshot wound to the abdomen.”

  Gunn shouted, “Motherfucker.” He took out his cuffs and put them on Jesus’ wrists before standing up and coming out into the hallway. He leaned against the wall and slid over to the door that the shots had been coming from. Reaching over with one hand, he swung the door open. Stanton could see inside. On the floor, sitting up against the bed facing the door, was a man in boxer shorts with his shirt off. A bullet hole just above the ear drained his body of blood and turned the sheets behind him a dark black. His eyes were glazed over and a revolver sat limp in his right hand.

  Stanton felt a wave of nausea. He had seen far worse and thought it just a result of the physical exertion. The woman on the ground was crying and he went to comfort her when he suddenly couldn’t breathe.

  He checked himself for gunshot wounds but found none. Despite that, his lungs grew tight, as if he were breathing through a straw. He began gasping for air as Gunn came over and said, “Hey, man, you okay?”

  Before Stanton could respond, he felt a tightening in his chest and pain shocked his body like an electric current. His vision blurred at the edges as panic raced through him, and he lost consciousness and hit the floor.

  CHAPTER 3

  Nehor Stark stepped out of the McKay State Hospital in San Diego and stood on the pavement of the parking lot. He looked up to the sun and then shielded his eyes. Though they allowed time outside in the yard, the hospital had minimized his exposure to sunlight and it surprised him how painful sunlight could be when you hadn’t seen it in a long time.

  He looked around the parking lot. No car, no waiting family, no children or friends or lovers. There was only him, the clothes that he wore, and the two hundred dollars he had in his pocket.

  The hospital had called a cab for him and he waited at the curb. He’d been an avid fan of television while inside but actually seeing the newer model of cars, particularly the shining sports cars that whizzed past him on the street, filled him with a sense of wonder and he smiled. It was like he had stepped out of a time machine in the future. There were going to be so many things to experience and enjoy. So much fun to be had.

  The cab came to a stop in front of him and he climbed in to the back. He took out a scrap of toilet paper he had in his pocket that had an address scribbled on it. He handed it to the cabbie and then turned and stared out the window.

  “Who you got up there?” the cabbie said.

  Nehor looked to him. “What?” The sound of his voice surprised him. It was metallic from disuse. During the past years, he hadn’t used it much. In therapy he would usually sit quietly and stare at the floor. The doctors typically assumed his medication had made him inert and let him be.

  “At the cemetery, who you got up there?”

  Nehor bit into his cheeks, a habit he had developed through boredom. “Your wife.”

  “What?”

  He chuckled. “Just drive.”

  The cabbie mumbled something about assholes in his cab. Nehor watched him. He was growing more upset as he sat and stewed. His emotions so controlled him that even a slight insult dug itself deep inside him, like a worm.

  “You know what, asshole,” the cabbie finally said as he pulled to the curb, “get out.”

  “Why?”

  “Fuck you why. I don’t have to drive nobody I don’t want ta. Get the fuck out.”

  Nehor thought a moment about how to respond. What would somebody say in this situation? “I’m sorry,” he said.

  “You’re sorry?”

  “Yes. I’m sorry. Please just drive.”

  “Nah, fuck you, pal. You made your bed. Out.”

  Nehor took a deep breath and stepped out of the cab. Tucked into his sleeve was the knife he had taken out of the cafeteria nearly six years ago and had kept under his pillow. He slammed the tip into one of the tires and it went nearly to the hilt. As he pulled it out, the air exploded out of the slit and the cab instantly tilted to the side.

  “Motherfucking cocksucker!” the cabbie screamed, stepping out of the cab.

  Nehor was walking away when he felt a hand on his shoulder. In one clean motion he spun around with the knife, slicing off all four fingers at the knuckle. The cabbie sat in stunned silence. Nehor glanced down at the severed flesh that sat on the pavement.

  “You better pick them up before a cat takes them.” He leaned in close to the man’s face and whispered, “Here, kitty kitty.” He kissed the man on the cheek before walking away.

  The man was still in shock but it began to dim as quickly as it had overtaken him. He was now yelling and then screaming. Nehor turned around once to see him on his knees picking up his fingers. He smiled to himself and continued walking.

  Nehor entered Mount Nadia Memorial Park through the main gates. It was a cemetery up on a hill with a view of San Diego below it. Though residential property was zoned around it, there were few homes as the cemetery routinely brought odd night visitors performing rituals or junkies looking for a quiet place to shoot up. The turnover rate for surrounding residents was near fifty percent.

  He stopped at a grave that had a batch of fresh flowers on it. He picked them up and carried them with him. Many graves were simple headstones without much décor and he would step over them. He had read a myth somewhere that if you stepped over a grave, the inhabitant could see you and would want revenge.

  The sunlight began to fade as gray clouds wafted in and a slight drizzle began. The rain was warm and it trickled down through his hair, which he decided he would soon want to shave, and over his face, soaking his clothes and the flowers he held in his hand.

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nbsp; By the time he found the grave, he was drenched from head to foot. He sat down on the wet grass cross-legged and placed the flowers on the grave. It was a modest headstone, dark gray with a few simple lines: ESTELL ROSE STARK - BELOVED MOTHER.

  Nehor took a few deep breaths through his nose and pulled the hair out of his eyes, slicking it back on his head. He ran his hand along the headstone and over the lettering that had been engraved.

  In a sudden, violent motion he bashed the headstone with his foot. He kicked it again and again and again. He took the flowers and hit them over the headstone until they disintegrated and then began to dig into the grass, removing dirt and sod with his bare fingers. He dug with both hands, grunting and spitting and swearing, until he had thoroughly exhausted himself.

  Nehor felt warm sweat mix with the rain on his forehead as he fell back, out of breath. Despite his effort, the hole wasn’t deeper than half a foot. He lay looking up at the sky, feeling the rain on his face, for a long time. When he had caught his breath, he stood up and saw a small shack on the property. He walked down to it and found that the door was unlocked. Inside were a lot of tools: a wheelbarrow, a desk with several documents on it, and a mug of coffee. He tasted the coffee. It was cold and he spit it out over the wall.

  He took a shovel, and headed back to the grave. He dug around the headstone as deep as he could until the little bit of granite was mobile and he was able to kick it over. He lifted it and found that it was far heavier than the size would lead him to believe. But he still managed to bring it over to the pavement of the road just up the hill. He lifted it over his head, and threw it down. It shattered into three pieces. He lifted and threw the pieces several times, unable to break them into smaller chunks.

  Nehor stood there, watching the bits of headstone. The homes sat silent around him and he realized he didn’t have a place to stay.

  As he made his way down the hill, exhausted but with a wiry energy that gave him a second wind, he could see the outline of the city. He grinned to himself; how much fun he was about to have.

  CHAPTER 4

  Stanton waited patiently in the small room at Scripps Hospital as the results of his neurological testing were retrieved. Diagrams and charts of the brain’s anatomy were up on the walls with a poster from the 80’s that showed an egg frying and said, This is your brain on Drugs.

  The door opened and a nurse came in and grabbed his medical charts, which she’d forgotten. Stanton could see the markings of a tattoo that had been removed on her forearm. It was a man’s name and underneath was a heart.

  “The doctor will be right with you.”

  Stanton was alone again with his thoughts. He took a deep breath and leaned back in the chair. His parents had taken him to a child psychiatrist when he was younger. Though his father had been a successful psychiatrist before switching to the world of academia, Stanton had suffered such a deep depression as a child that his father felt helpless before it.

  The psychiatrist was quirky and fun, but was unable to help him. Eventually, Stanton stopped going. It wasn’t until they moved from rain-soaked Seattle to San Diego with its 320 days of sunshine and the beach close by that Stanton pulled out of the depression. Being back here, having doctors try to figure out what was wrong with him, made him feel like that kid again, sitting in front of a psychiatrist who knew there was nothing he could do for him.

  A knock and Dr. Kumar Patel stepped inside. He was Indian with a gold bracelet around his wrist. His face was buried in Stanton’s charts and he sat down next to him.

  “Well, I wasn’t able to find anything, Jon. Motor activity is fine, there are no meningeal symptoms, cranial nerves, sensory system, coordination, everything is fine. The MRI didn’t show any abnormal legions or subarachnoid or intracranial hemorrhages. Physically there’s nothing wrong with you.”

  “That’s kind of what I figured. I thought it might’ve been fatigue.”

  “That’s possible, but I don’t think that’s what it was. I think you had a panic attack.”

  “Now? I’m thirty-six. Why would they begin now?”

  “It’s rare, usually they show up sooner, but you know as well as I do they can happen later in life. You have a PhD in psychology, think about it clinically. If a patient came to you, with a job as stressful as yours, divorced, working long hours, and he described this incident, what would your first thoughts be for a diagnosis?”

  Stanton exhaled through his nose and looked to a poster up on the wall. “It would be stress induced panic disorder.”

  “I’m referring you to a specialist. She’s a psychiatrist I went to medical school with.” The doctor rose. “I still remember the class you taught at UCLA on cognition and schizophrenia. You were one of the best professors I had. I was a little jealous ‘cause you were younger than me. If you don’t mind my asking, why didn’t you ever go to medical school or stick with the University? What made you want to be a cop?”

  “Right now, Kumar, I have no idea.”

  Stanton left the hospital and sat in his car a few minutes, enjoying the heater as it rained outside. He turned on some music, INXS, and closed his eyes. He felt fine and comfortable and then when he began thinking about work, about the stacks of files on his desk, the tightening feeling in his chest returned. Each file was a life, a life somebody else destroyed. And like a stone thrown into a murky pond, the ripples affected everything around them. Families were devastated, friends were left in shock, teachers, church leaders, and neighbors would begin to be a little more cautious. Perhaps not getting so easily attached to people in the future, at least subconsciously, for fear of something like this happening again.

  Stanton felt lightheaded. He took out his iPhone and looked at the contact he had just added for Dr. Jennifer S. Palmer. He dialed and a receptionist answered. He explained that he was a referral from Dr. Patel and that they would be faxing over paperwork later in the day. An appointment was set for tomorrow morning and he hung up.

  As he started his car and pulled out of the hospital, he felt jittery. Therapy, in the macho, testosterone world of homicide detectives, was seen as a weakness. The fact was that many, if not most, of the detectives were in therapy or on medication or in need of it. But it was something that was shunned and not spoken about.

  Stanton’s cell phone rang. It was Lieutenant Childs.

  “What’s up, Danny?”

  “Hey. How was the visit to the hospital?”

  “Fine.”

  “That’s it? Just fine?”

  “They didn’t find anything wrong.”

  “I figured that. It’s nerves, man. It happens. Pressure builds up in the motherfuckin’ job and it needs a release. If you don’t give it one, it’ll take it itself. That’s why I keep tellin’ you to come boxin’ with me.”

  “I don’t think getting punched in the face is going to help me very much. But thanks.”

  “Suit yourself. Anyway, what the hell was I sayin’? Oh, yeah. I got a case for you and Gunn. Body found in a burned-down house. Could be electrical wires or suicide, or shit knows what, but I want you on it. Dude was an old man and probably lit himself on fire fallin’ asleep with a cigarette in his mouth. There was a sixteen-year-old stepson that lived with him. You want me to upload the file onto the server?”

  “No, I’ll take a hardcopy.”

  “New world, brother. You gotta use a computer some time.”

  “I like having a file. There’s something comforting about it. It’s real, not just information on a network.”

  “Well get your no-computer-havin’ ass back here then and pick up the file. I got the fire investigator meetin’ you down there in two hours.”

  “Thanks. I’ll swing by after lunch.”

  Stanton hung up the phone. Fires were usually the most boring of all his cases, but also the easiest to close. Nine times out of ten, they were as Childs described them: somebody left a cigarette out near a quilt or didn’t wire something properly or left flammable material near a furnace.

/>   As he stopped at a red light, he glanced down at his iPhone, and googled: stress induced panic disorder treatments.

  CHAPTER 5

  Stanton sat outside the burnt-out shell of a house and sipped a Diet Coke as Joy Division played on the CD. The neighborhood was quiet and upper-middle class; the type of place where something like this would be talked about and dissected for years to come.

  The home was just a two-story brick and stucco with a small front lawn. Police tape was pulled across the windows since they had been blown out during the fire. Stanton could see the charred exterior around the windows and front door.

  A car came to a stop in front of him and he saw Gunn motion to him with a salute using two fingers. Stanton nodded and took out his phone and texted him.

  where’s the fire invest?

  sleepin’ with yo mama

  my mother’s dead, jerk

  really? what kind of sick fuck do we have as a fire investigator?

  Stanton grinned and then noticed the old Ford truck that pulled up in front of the house. A man got out wearing an old bomber jacket and took a kit from the bed of the truck. Stanton stepped from the car and approached him.

  “Are you Benny?”

  “Yeah, you Jon Stanton?”

  “Yeah,” Stanton said, shaking his hand. “How are ya?”

  “Good. Looks like we got ourselves a little barbeque.”

  “A man was killed in that house,” Stanton said, hoping there wouldn’t be any jokes or lighthearted comments.

  “Don’t mind him,” Gunn said, walking up, “his mother died recently.”

  “Really? I’m sorry to hear that.”

  “She didn’t die recently. Let’s just get on with this.”

  The man shrugged and looked the house over. He took glasses out of his breast pocket and slipped them on. “Let’s get this party off the ground.”